Feeling a little broken

Christmas was great. B came and got me Christmas eve. Christmas morning we went to Brian's for my family and then went up to his parents house for his families. It was a good one.
The part that broke me a little was checking Facebook. First four, then five, then Six, now eight people I know got engaged over Christmas. Two of which are B's co-workers so we knew about one of them before it happened. B had mentioned that someone had asked if he was feeling pressure at all and he said no and laughed. He laughed telling me about it. And now I have this ache..and a constant need to cry. Only I can't stand to cry in front of him, he gives me this look that makes me want to cry more. It's not a bad look, it's a mix between love and you're crazy. I love him and I know he loves me it's the waiting that hurts.

3 day weekend sucked

Worst Valentine's Day weekend.  Nothing happened. We were supposed to go out because he wanted to buy me something  to make up for skipping Valentine's Day but he ended up taking a nap most of the day. We never even left the house. Most disappointing weekend I have had in a while with him.

Valentines day

I worked on a cute little drawing of us. It took me a while to get right. I made it to give to him for valentine's day, he saw it and said he looked creepy. I know he didn't mean to hurt me or my feelings but I think that on top of yesterday, today didn't go as planned

What makes me cry

He is the love of my life and sometimes he is the only thing that holds my heart together. But some nights without even trying he is the reason I cry over the littlest things. Some nights I don't even want to talk to him because  I know the second I open my mouth is will cry. So tonight I turned off all the lights, got into bed and cried right next to him. He held my hand and let me cry.

Day 1 of 2016

Well it's January 1st and I think back on this last year, it was a lot of fun. B and I did a few fun things and our relationship has grown so much. He has helped me grow so much. I started exercising this last year, I vacationed, I realized who I am as a person, I even changed classrooms at work. I admit work has been a bit more stressful this yeah working with a brand new teacher but it's a different kind of stress than the years past. I am excited to see what this new year brings. Perhaps something big. Who knows. This month is our third anniversary, our third year of loving each other and seeing that love grow more and more.