I had a bad week

My life seems to be spiraling deep into a depression again. And I have been cutting constantly. The after effects of the cuts hurt more than the actual making of them.

Amber

Ugh, if she is what friends r like, i dont want any. She is soposedly pissed at me because I am not interesting enough. And plus the fact that she knows that I don't like talking about her ex boyfriend, and how she is gonna get back with him even tho she knows she shouldn't. It pisses me off. Not to mention the fact that she is always way too depressed for me to be around her, and I can't take that much stress right now. And then, today while I was sitting next to my sis, amber starte messeging her about how she was removing me from her myfaves because I am not worth talking to, and that she was gonna replace me with her ex, she is an idiot. She just needs to stop waiting for her life to start, it started when she got pregnant at 16 and needs to come to terms with the fact that maybe she isn't soposed to have a guy in her life right now so she can get her crap together and actuaslly become a good mom. I mean its not that hard, she knew what she was getting herself into when she was having sex, and having 2 kids you would think, would help her realise what her life was about.I need her to realise that she doesn't need a man to make her happy, she needs to accept her life, and move one, stop waiting for life to start when hers started a long time ago. Its rediculous. UGH!

Hell

Well life is lame. I have men in my life who act like they don't want to be. They enter into my life few weeks at a time, then out of no where they disappear. Guys suck right now, ugh

People in my life

People bug me. Well, not just any people, people in my life. I am caught between a rock and a hard place. Friends who date, then breakup. There is a separation and you have to decide who gets who. When you belong to one friend and have been told not to see the other person. And even though you have said you haven't, you still have a small connection. And never mention to so called party number 1 anything that involves party number 2. It makes me sad that I can't say anything about anything about anyone.2 its just hard

Sick

Ugh, summertime makes me sick... literally. Every summer I get the flu. I haven't got it yet, but I have been sick for the last few days. With a stuffy nose and a head ache and congestion. I can't stop sneezing and it is driving me crazy. There is always a tickle and its insane.