grief and loss

Today marks two years of the passing of my Dad.

Until Two years ago today I had lived most of my life with depression. Days of sadness and emptiness that would come and go like they always had. Until Two years ago I had known depression like an old friend but I had not know Grief. Grief hit me hard and I did not see it coming. The day I lost my father I learned a whole new level of sadness, emptiness, guilt, loneliness. What I thought were bad depression days were nothing compared to the grief Days. The uncontrollable sobbing due to a loss I knew would come but never saw coming. Two years ago I talked with him on the phone in the morning and sat by his side as he faded away that night.