Apr 16, 2020

I'm not myself

I'm not my self today. Something is off and I'm not quite sure what. I feel like I am not in there, like I left the shadow of myself to linger until I return. This whole quarentine covid 19 thing is taking its toll on my soul and on my body. Any glimmer of hope or dim light at the end of the long tunnel just seams to get getting further and further awat and I'm not sure I can keep up at this point. B thinks I'm stronger than I am and it's hard seeing him see me struggle and not meet the standards I have set myself. I want to go back to work. I want to go back to normal. I want to be able to buy a house and not panic about not being able to afford it. It's been almost 8 months without a real place to live and call our own. 8 months too long.

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