So I am fairly certain that the pains I have been experiencing these last few weeks are caused directly from my emotions. Its not all the time my chest pains are connected to them, in fact its rare if they are. But this past months been taking a toll on me. Chris and I made a break thru, we spoke our minds and were where I thought was sturdy ground. But of course even after he says his usual amazingness. He has vanished again, it all ended with more broken promises and lots of pain on my end yet again. My heart has been aching, feeling truely broken. I'm in a constant pain and no clue how to make it better. I need him like I need air and it feels like I'm running out of breath.