Aug 23, 2010

Chance

So I may or may not lose my virginity tomorrow. He asked if I wanted to come over and hang out after work. I said yes. And this time I plan on actually hanging out, not flaking out. I have thought about it at great lengths, and I realize that as much as I want this I know that I may also freak out after. I may like myself better, I may hate myself, I may cry, I may ignore the world. There are a billion outcomes built up inside me ready to show their freakish heads.

1 comment:

Camille said...

Some of my own thoughts, love. I'm worried about how I will feel AFTERWARDS. Just trust yourself, trust him, and make absolutely sure that it's what you want. There's no pressure for you to lose your virginity tomorrow. You have all the time in the world. Make sure you are comfortable with whatever happens and take into consideration how you will feel after. Take care, love =]