So I think that my heart is starting to change my mind. The more I think about Andrew the less I think about or even want Chris. I haven't prayed about bit yet but I will tonight. Because I know that as much as my heart wants/needs him I know that he is clueless to the whole thing. He has apparently changed not only physically but emotionally over the past 2 yrs. And I haven't. Yes emotionally I have grown so much but physically I haven't really changed and its killing me. I am 22. Yeah I know I still have life ahead of me but I don't want to live that life alone.