Blue eyes. pale skin. Body of scars. sometimes blond hair. Heart patient. Manic Depressive. Struggling with life one day at a time.. This is my journey, pleasant or not here I am.
Feb 9, 2009
I EFFED UP
So I'm pretty sure I just screwed my chances with Chris.
Today was a frustrating milestone. I don't remember how it came up, but Chris asked me what draws people to him. I told him it was because he has the ability to make people love him. So of course he asked how he did that because he thought he sucked. So I told him its a love/hate thing. That of course made him ask what the love thing was, so I told him it was his hands, height, hair, the fact that he was very random, his eyes, he's a guys, he makes me feel special, and the way it feels when he holds my hand. He then asked if I wanted to go for a walk tonight. I asked how cold it was outside because I was cold enough. He didn't quite know but was willing to bring sub zero gear if I needed it. I still said no. So he said something that got me thinking. He said "to be fair id make you warm. But if that's not good enough what should I do?" so I said something about being cold already and not feeling up to it. He said "your problem is your cold? Ill make anything the way you want it trust me" I told him it was honestly very tempting but I was just gonna stay in and watch a movie. He told me he just got the movie Taken and I could come watch it. I told him I couldn't cause I have to get up early and asked what he was up to tomorrow night after 10 30. He said "hopefully I will be around :(. I have plans with my ex after work... unless I get better plans." I told him I worked from 3 45 to10. I would love to make plans if I could but I'm gonna be working. He ignored me after that. I told amber what I said and did. God I'm an idiot. I just know I messed thing up.
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It isn't your fault if you can't hang out exactly when he wants to hang. Don't worry about it, I'm sure everything will turn out fine. Good luck and take care =]
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