alone

Every day he breaks my heart a little bit more and more. can the monitor sense that? can it hear my heart breaking bit by bit?
We said we'd meet up tonight at 9. all day he was telling me he couldn't wait, he wanted 9 to come now. but at 9 he didn't come, at 10 he didn't come. I don't know why but i honestly thought he would. :( i haven't heard from him in almost 2 hours and its killing me. I told my mom he didn't show, and she told me i need to give up on him. trust me i want to... i just cant