Again

I cut again today. Mainly because I got a new towel to keep the blood in. I don't plan on washing it. At least not for a while. I love watching the blood bubble and spill over the freshly opened wound. Watching the blood calms me, in a way it helps me. I love how as soon as the blood surfaces I can smell it and weirdly it doesn't bother me. Is that weird? Oh well if it is I don't care. It doesn't hurt today. Normally I feel some for of pain and the relief, but today all it is is relief. Its interesting how a body can handle different levels of pain, interesting enough to where I like to test it daily.