need

I have the undying need to take a Brillo pad to my face. Not sure why, I just need to!

what is it?

It's not just the cutting that is the addiction. It's the scars the scratches the burn of the healing it's that fact that for a short while I know I am actually feeling.

Pick pick pick

Today was actually an ok day. Had a nice family dinner at my aunts house.
When we got home tho, I automatically started picking at my face and my body. I now have red marks and scratches all over my face.
Also my cuts have started healing. Its got to be my second favorite part about cutting, the healing.. The itching that's always needing to be scratched and the heat the emanates from it. I kinda love it.

10.5 inches of snow. Ugh

Warning +9

Today I don't know what happened. It was an ok day. I have had my blade in my purse for months and haven't touched it. But tonight I don't know, I just neeed it.