Jul 30, 2012

Heart Surgery Set

got a call from the drs office today.. my heart surgery is set for Aug 28th im soo ready

Jul 17, 2012

Nothin but silence

Tonight I sit in my room listening to the silence of the house. Not listening to music, every song beings in thoughts and memories I don't want to live tonight. Tonight's a night I could use without thinking. Thinking only breaks my heart into smaller pieces.

Jul 11, 2012

Crying again

Been on the brink of tears for the last few days. Not even sure why other than loneliness and fear of what's going to happen. Today is my big cardiology appointment meeting with the specialist. Myb health has been getting notisable worse fo me and I'm hoping they can do something or atleast give me answers 

Jul 10, 2012

Stir crazy

Going stir crazy in my body tonight, feels like I'm trapped and can't fnd a way out. No one is answering their phones or responding to messages, trapped and alone is not what I wanted to feel tonight

Jul 7, 2012

why isnt there a pill or a shot or a patch or something that stops the tears from flowing? because if there was i would buy a year supply