Just a Little Bit By Maria Mena

"Just A Little Bit"

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy
And maybe I'd get there.

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner
And maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Hiking up my skirt
Asking for your time

Clearly, clearly I remember
Nervous if ever confronted
And questioning myself

Perhaps, perhaps if I got better
Perhaps if I challenged myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

Maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Pulling up my shirt
Staring blank ahead

Clearly, clearly I remember
Days of useless crying
Almost feeling dead

Perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller
Perhaps, I could control myself
Perhaps if I was

something new and different for me

SO I dont know whaat i am doing in my life these days. I have somehow gotten myself into a sexual mixup with two different guys. Both of which are supposedly happily married.. god i dont know what the hell is wrong. i stopped it but still, when did i decide to be the girl who sexts with friends husbands? i hate who i have become yet again... Fuck.