Aug 31, 2007

Diary of a bad day

Bad days lead to sad days. these are just a few of my scars







Aug 3, 2007

hell of a life

I hate myself today. Im not the girl i want to be. Life seems its gonna go your way, but then it just turns you down. Having faith in things doesnt help either. you can believe one thing and in just seconts your world can be smashed. Like mine. If there was a chance i had something to live for, now i have nothing. Atleast at this moment. From here on out, i live expecting to die. People say to have a heart full of hope, but what if there is no room for hope, no room for love? there is just hate, rage, lonliness, fear...Death? is it wrong to wish death on ones self? People dont understand, they believe they do, and even if you believe they do, they dont know. there are things even my theropist doesnt know about my life. Things i will keep inside till the day i die, whenever that may be. People are there to make you realize how much you hate your life. and i will tell you this... its working. I put my trust in soemone, and i only ended up hating myself even more, He only brought me more pain, more suffering, along with the promise of me never feeling pain agian. well forget you guys, forget everyone. I hate you.